Sunday, September 6, 2009

Why does my heart...feel so bad?


There is no one to share what I was thinking now. I should say that I got plenty of friends here in UniMap but I choose to post a blog and share this to myself. I guess there is no one here is worthy for me to trade my genuine heart with.

As if I am crashing into a face-mask party, full of familiar faces, but somehow they are strangers to me. When they put on their masks, I can’t even recognize them. Even though our distance is very near to each others, but their hearts are too far to be reach. Somehow I am able to realize; they forgot to bring their hearts along. They loss their hearts, or have I loss mine?

Despite that, I am able to find a room in the house, where I took off the mask. Being alone in the room is not scary as I thought because; silence sometimes does speak the truth. Without hypocrites people to fill in the silence, I just feel relieved. Indescribable relieved.
Have you ever heard before that, being alone is the last things you would ever wish for on the earth? I believe rather that being reluctant to fit myself into this group of people, Dear God: I do wish I am all alone on this earth.

I called up to an old friend of mine, just for a few seconds, we both chuckles for our good old days little silly jokes. And I was stunned. How long I have not laugh sincerely from the bottom of my heart? I miss those good old days. I miss you guys, my old friends. I really do.

1 comment:

  1. Yeah,more than agree... Being alone is the time when u can be yourself. :)

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