Where is the love?

I have never date anyone before. Do you believe it or not?

“Honesty is the best policy”

But no one believes in me when I tell them the truth. They doubted. They feel awkward. They look at me as I am an extinct dinosaur.

Excuse me, take a look at yourself first. Is there anything to proud of for having so many failed relationships?

“Love is not meant for a person like me”

I guess this statement is so true to describe me. Maybe I am expecting too much.

There were the times where I do envy those couple dating, and starts wondering when I can find mine too. This kind of thought only lasted for a few seconds because I know that is the appearance. What lies beyond that, only he and she know.

Everyone around me did not set-up a good example of relationship. They just show me the ugly side of it. It is too ugly till I told myself that I would never ever let myself to end up like that.

At the end of the day, I am still single.

Where is the love? Where is the pure chemistry that brought two people together to fall in love? Nowadays, failing in love seems to be initiates by curiosity, getting married seems like a tradition and divorce is the process.

My heart churned. I really do loss my faith in relationship.

But I do love flirting around. Just pure flirting, no strings attach. When comes to commitment, sorry, I guess I am not ready yet. Maybe, I am afraid of disappointments.

“Love is not a fairytales”

Yeah. I told myself so.

Nevertheless, who do not want a happily ever after?

I have a dream

I have a dream. A dream, I do not dare to share with other. A dream, I believe people think that I am not realistic. A dream, I keep to myself.

I accept everything that is planned for me. From primary school to University, I never have any direction. Even though, if I did, I never fight for it. Put it in a good way to describe me? “Embracing fate lar….”

I’ll be graduating soon. I guess I’ll find jobs in my related field, living a life soullessly and as time goes by, be regretting for not having the courage to persuade what I want.

I was thinking should I continue to embrace my fate? Just let the fate decides what the future holds for me?

I have read a good piece of encouragement before. It inspires me for some time, yeah…only for some time. Without determination, encouragement words remains to be encouragement words.

Clock is ticking. I should move on and starts thinking how to make my dream come true. Do not be regret for the things you have done, be regret for the things you did not do.

“Dream for the stars and you shall reach the moon.”

I’m heading to my moon. What about you?