Insomnia

3.05am.

Gosh, what am I doing in this early hour? Spent three hours rolling on bed, feeling tired but can't get to sleep. Close my eyes but my mind is spinning around and keep thinking and thinking. This has lasted for a few days and gives me hell.

Reality is cruelty. Sleeping is a good choice to pull you out from the reality. But now I don't even have a chance to escape from it and have a good dream.

Just feeling tired.

Tired with the people around me.

Tired with the surroundings.

Tired of putting a mask on.

Tired of drama.

Tired of uncertainty.

Tired of being a loser.

Tired of everything.

Tired of being tired.

I'm fine. It's fine. I can deal with this. But can i have a good rest and regain my strength first before i deal with all on the lists?

Chow Gong, where are you? Can we havea game of chess, please?